If I could have coffee with God. . . From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power

Welcome to Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power and thanks for coming by. I hope you feel comfortable enough to join us in this thought-provoking, heart-warming series entitled, “if I could have coffee with God . . .” Grab your coffee and go with me to your favorite quiet place, and just imagine that we’re having coffee with Him. I have something I want to thank Him for and you may feel the same way. 🙂

As I interact with so many people, I can’t help but look at the puzzle pieces of my own life and the amazing picture that He is still creating to this day. As I watch so many in their patterns of self-destruction, I am so very thankful for His gentle sovereignty, which reminds me and assures me that He’s not done with any of us who are still here. I’m reminded of His process in me, and the truth is that His cleanup, if you will, has never been like that of a shop vac, at least not for me or in me!

Seriously, think about it. In this fast-paced world, we have adapted to a microwave mentality. We want it fixed now. We don’t want to wait. We want to feel better now. We don’t want to hurt, emotionally or physically, so we try and fix that too.

But it’s only when I take a chronological camera — and journaling helps too! 🙂 — that I am able to see His gentle but firm correction, His sweeping love and steering direction that has kept me on the operating table so to speak, or the potter’s wheel as He took out that which hindered His plan for my life and replaced it with what I would need. He’s amazingly thoughtful in that way.

Let me give you an example: When He had begun healing me of some of my control issues stemming from my childhood abuse He took me off work to give me rest. Now, some people would not look at being taken out of your chosen career as a gift, as a time for rest, but because I was learning to incorporate the spiritual part of what was happening, I could see His hand in the whole thing. I truly thought it was just for rest, and as it turned out, He did not allow me to go back into the court room.

It was a time in my life that I refer to being on the operating table undergoing a heart surgery which I have come to appreciate is an ongoing thing, not a one-time event.  🙂 People used to take me literally and ask, “Are you okay? What was wrong with your heart?” I’d giggle and say, no, no, I mean in a spiritual sense.

So He was taking my need to be, and the delusion that I was, in control by stripping me of all the ways I used to control my world, which started with and through my career. He has since replaced that piece of junk called control with trust and peace and when I see others trying to control everything and every one in their world, I am reminded of my own process and His part in it.

When it was time to deal with the issues of abandonment, He began to cut away at that and then He gave me an amazing husband to finish off that piece of junk. Now at first, I really thought He had made a mistake, seriously! In fact, I don’t have enough fingers and toes to count the number of times I cried out in painful and questioning agony, “Are you sure you didn’t make a mistake?”

Oh, I’m so glad He was so patient and didn’t use the shop vac to make the replacements. Can you just see His gentle hands cutting away the issue of abandonment and in that hole, putting trust and a lasting love? It’s such a beautiful picture and I could literally paint hundreds more for you with words, but I better wrap this up and just say, if I could have coffee with God, I’d thank Him for His gentle ways, that His ways are not my ways, and that He is still patiently and lovingly working on that work that He will be faithful to complete until I am with Him in eternity again.

So what has He taken from you and put in its place?

Enjoy the day,

Evinda

 

 

P.S. Tomorrow is our WOW, which this blog actually leads into quite nicely, so we’ll pick up with this series next week 😉

 

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