Is This How Moses Felt? From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power

Welcome to Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power and thanks for joining me today for a journal entry. I like these times, when I share with you from a place deep within me that’s waiting to explode with emotion, a place of transparent vulnerability, and today’s journal entry is certainly no exception. Grab your coffee and come on in.

I received some news the other day and as the reality of it sets into my heart, I realize that it has the power to paralyze me as I come face to face with my inadequacies, and there are many. 🙂 Before I go any further about my news, let me take you back to Moses, a guy that God chose to use despite his inadequacies. Moses was Hebrew but raised Egyptian by an Egyptian princess because he was born during a time when all little boys under two years of age were to be killed. His testimony is actually quite amazing. Talk about an orphan. Poor guy was found floating down the river! Anyway, there’s so much more to his story before he grows up, but for the sake of time, let’s keep going.

One day Moses comes upon a fight between a Hebrew and an Egyptian and apparently the Egyptian was really beating the tar out of the Hebrew. Well, Moses has never forgotten his heritage, so he kills the Egyptian and then spends some time on the run.

He then marries a Midianite and becomes a Midianite shepherd. Talk about lifestyle change, and yet, I’m sure that this transition did much in the way of character building. Anyway, he’s tending the flock for his father-in-law and all of a sudden, God appears to him through a burning bush and pretty much tells Moses that He, God, wants to use Moses to free the children of Israel from the oppression of the Egyptians and King Pharaoh. “Come now, therefore, and I will send you to Pharaoh that you may bring my people, the children of Israel out of Egypt.”

Well, Moses begins to question God’s judgment, telling God that he was the wrong person for the job for several reasons. Hello, he killed an Egyptian! Like he’s gonna go face Pharaoh after killing an Egyptian? No wonder he felt all the things he must have felt, inadequate being at the top of the list.

I don’t know about you, but in my beginning of my relationship with God, I could never imagine openly disagreeing with God, but I love the character we see in this exchange. For every objection that Moses gave Him, God overcame it, reminding Moses that He would be with Him.

Oh, what a sense of humor He has to use life’s circumstances to help me to relate to the history makers in His Word. I never thought I would be able to relate to Moses but with this upcoming event, I most certainly can relate to his feelings of inadequacy and though I don’t dare say, “No, don’t send me,” inside I have a battle to work through.

Oh, that’s right; I haven’t told you what I’m struggling about. So there’s been this possibility that I may be asked to speak for Liberty University in Virginia and with everything else going on, I just put it off in the back of my mind that some day . . . To make a long story short, I received a phone call from the one God has used to help open this door and she said, “I just wanted to let you know that you have been approved by the Dean to come speak for us.” I could just hear the approval and excitement in her voice.

My insides tensed up like a knot in a string and I thought, Dean, why is the Dean getting involved. I didn’t have long to wait for the answer to my unasked question. She said, “But I have to tell you what happened.”

“Okay.”

“Apparently Liberty was locked out of your website so the Dean came to me and said, ‘I’m sorry, but I don’t think the speaker you found is going to be a good fit for Liberty because we can’t even access her website which means there must be some inappropriate context within it.’”

Susan went on to tell me that she told the Dean a little bit about my background/testimony, and he told her he’d get back with her. When he came back, this is what he said: “I’d like to thank you for finding us such an amazing speaker,” and they went on to talk a bit more.

I am humbled, and part of me wonders, Are you sure you don’t have me mixed up with somebody else? That feeling of inadequacy continued to taunt me when my adopted mom e-mailed me and let me know they are the largest nonprofit Christian university in the world, specializing in Master and Doctorate degrees, and I don’t quite have my A.S. degree!

I have no idea why or how He wants to use me, but I will go knowing that He is sending me through an open door that only He could have opened. Would you be so kind as to remember me in your prayers, please!

Humbly,

Evinda

 

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22 Responses to “Is This How Moses Felt? From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power”

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  3. Jan Bachelor says:

    Oh that Moses, he made more excuses for God to choose someone other then him! Ha. You are right that God didn’t even give one of his reasons as a way out of his destiny. So, seeing that you, as well as those of us joining in on this “Destination” with you, believe that no matter what trail God sets you on, that He already knows you are well able to show His unbelievable Holy Spirit power and it is of no consequence whether it be before kings or commoners, He will make you shine!!!! You have the highest degree ever given to man. You are a daughter of our living God. Go girl!
    (my spelling cannot be held against me, ok? Ha)

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    Blessings,
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  12. admin says:

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  17. admin says:

    Raylene,
    Thanks for stopping by for Coffee Hour.
    Have a Sparkling day.
    Evinda

  18. admin says:

    Thanks for much for joining me.
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    Blessings with grateful heart,
    Evinda

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  22. admin says:

    I would be humbled.
    Blessings,
    Evinda