Journal Entry-Conclusion-From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power

Welcome to Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power and thanks for coming back for the conclusion of this up-close and personal journal entry. Grab your coffee and come on in.

I marvel at Abba’s sense of humor because if you would have told me a couple of years ago that I would be having such an amazing time at my brother’s and with my brother, I would have laughed, and not necessarily with you. I don’t think I would have been able to enjoy what I’m now able to enjoy in this season; nor would I be so sincerely burdened for him and about him.

It’s nothing short of a miracle because ever since I was 15 and he was 13, there has been a gap of anger and bitterness between us. And do you know who He’s used to bridge that gap?  My husband! My brother likes George and I have seen George bring out a side of my brother that I thought was dead forever, the soft part of his heart! 🙂 In fact, I have seen several things that I truly admire about my brother.

But anyway, it has been amazing, getting to know this brother of mine who is 14 months younger than me. Yes, I can honestly admit that in some ways I am envious of their discipline and the fact that they are both nearly ready to retire financially and yet what’s left unspoken and the differences between us speaks so much.

We are very different and I am learning to love and respect him despite our differences. In fact, something I read just this morning as I was struggling internally about some things warmed my heart. It was from an Al-Anon subscription that I get every morning via e-mail. I thought the timing was nothing short of a God-incidence!

Just because I am in my recovery/healing process that is being guided by our Father doesn’t mean that my loved ones will join automatically. No, in fact, I have come to know and understand that people change at different paces, for different reasons, in different seasons and on different levels. I must stay focused on my own necessary changes because that will make the journey that much more enjoyable, free from more baggage, so to speak, and free for my brother to be him and for God to do what only He can do in His life.

If I am allowed to be salt in his life, for my life to speak into his, well that will certainly be amazing and life-changing, not only him, but me as well.

Oops, I could keep going, but my thoughts have been interrupted by the sound of a crashing watering can just to the left of us. Well, I’ll be; it’s little Roxy, the female squirrel who we have discovered has to be pregnant! She’s still looking for more peanuts. 🙂

Anyway, I should let you go. Thanks so much for letting me share a little bit of nature and its analogies it has to offer when we stop for a minute to smile at creation!                               

Blessings

Evinda

P.S. As a matter of fact, our last night in Washington, George and my brother had a heart-to-heart God talk and though we differ in many opinions, I know that God continues to use my George to sprinkle more salt on my brother’s heart. I’d covet your prayers for his ultimate surrender and confession for the reality of Christ in charge of his life. 🙂

 

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