Nana Holds From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power

Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power

Thank you for joining me for a little break at Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power! It’s great to be back in this series, Nana Holds. Grab your coffee and come on in let’s get back to where we left off.

Ah, now I remember. I was sharing with you various things that required a great deal of adjustment, at least on my part, which include but are not limited to: sharing my space and the constant reminders of the necessity to do that, like opening cabinet doors, any cabinet door in just about every room, to find something of Bryden’s in there; or tripping over a toy in the middle of the floor, or his shoes taken off in the most inconvenient places, at least for me :). Then there’s the cooking just about every day, and the meal planning and grocery bill associated with that, not that Bryden eats much, but the structure and discipline is more of what I’m thinking took me time to adjust to. Cooking is definitely not one of my gifts! The laundry definitely increased for sure.

Another huge adjustment was how I spent my mornings. No longer was it all about my agenda – quiet time, check e-mail, check in with Facebook, make a few phone calls, run errands, plan dinner, do the bills, and of course tend to the CPM (Chicklit Power Ministries) stuff. Nope, instead it was now all about a two-year-old and his needs, and how I tended to them!

All of these things have no eternal value whatsoever, and yet, the way I have adjusted to them does. I wish I could look back and see less internal conflict which produced external conflict in those first few months; on the other hand, working through many of these conflicts has made me more dependent on my Savior, definitely increased my humility, and revealed areas in me that needed attention, pruning, and/or refining of some sort.

All of these adjustments stretched me, some just a little bit, and some as if I were one of those thick rubber bands and you could see the rubber thinning with each pull but in between each pull, love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control were and are being strengthened, and beneath all of that is this deep-rooted perception of myself as far as children go, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it just yet.

Hungry boy @ dinnertime

By now, we are a few months into this new season. Some things are getting better and some are not, but one thing that is changing is I am learning to choose my battles and change how I battle. Looking back on this season, I can still see the cloud of pain but beneath the cloud is a woman on her knees at times, and some days she’s hanging on to the hem of The Father’s robe, and other days, I see her hand clasped in His, and there’s even a smile on her face.

Join me Wednesday for more of Nana Holds.

Transparently,

Evinda

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