Nana Holds – From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power

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Welcome to Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power and thanks for joining me today for more of Nana Holds. Grab your coffee and let’s get back to where we left off. 🙂

With each conflict, I learned a bit more about my stepson. I remember when the light turned on for me about the mother of his child, revealing some powerful and painful truths. See, being without his mom for years was the steering mechanism for that relationship, and because of his mom and dad’s divorce, all he wanted was to be a family, no matter what the cost. He wasn’t able to see the dysfunctional cycle he was perpetuating.

All of this was why he insisted on bringing Bryden home when there was too much wrong for it to be right. Ugh, as I relive this, the pain is still as fresh as a brand new cut, and I’m not talking about a little one, but one that runs deep. Thank God for His healing power, His sovereignty that can take pain and turn it into beauty. 🙂

Some of my pain is my own reaction to Bryce informing us just three days before he left that He was going to get Bryden from his mom’s — Bryden’s Gamma —  and bring him home. His homecoming would be on January 1st of this year! Happy New Year! NOT! Again, looking back on it now, I can see it was Bryce’s desperate attempt to right was going wrong in his life, to change directions perhaps.

To say I wasn’t prepared is an understatement. This wasn’t supposed to be happening for a few months and honestly, I was still adjusting to the Bryce factor in our home, trying to maneuver around all the things happening that shouldn’t have been. Oh, how grateful I am that God can take a train wreck and pull beauty out of it.

I am so not exaggerating in any way the emotional torment I was drowning in and I can say that I’m sharing all this ugly with you to show you just how He can work, even in the depths of despair. That is exactly where I was when Bryce came home in the evening of New Year’s Day with little Bryden, locked in my room, not wanting to enter my new reality!

Join me Monday for more, and please, come back tomorrow for our Power Friday thought!

Transparently,

Evinda

 

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One Response to “Nana Holds – From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power”

  1. Jan Bachelor says:

    Your honesty is truly refreshing. It takes a lot to disclose inner feelings that we would rather not have all the world know. Just hearing your upset, and being able to see you and George work thru them a little at a time, gives hope to all.