Why do we do what we do? From Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power

Welcome to Coffee Hour with Chicklit Power, and welcome back to the final WOW from our 2010 WOW Rewind series. Grab your coffee and come on in for a few.

Oh, the timing of things sometimes makes me giggle. As I prepared to write this blog for you, I did just that, giggle, because these words of wisdom come at a perfect time to remind me about why I do what I do. As a matter of fact, I was given this verse last year when we were preparing for our “Keeping it Real through the Holidays” workshop, and in just a few days, we will be doing the “Resolutions and Relationships” workshop. I don’t find the timing coincidental at all!

This is our fourth workshop and you would think I’d quit wrestling with myself the way that I do, but because I live in the tent of flesh, nerves and stress can really get the best of me. It is in the final week before our events that the flame of stress seems to get ignited to “sky-high” by doubt and anxiety. I begin to question if anyone will really show up, if I’m really supposed to be doing another workshop; will everyone be so late that we’re left with an empty auditorium when it’s time to start? And the message, when is He going to give me the message? Is He gonna make me wait or give it to me sooner than later? I mean, the list goes on and on and on. But, have no fear; God’s word is here to splash some truth on that sky-high flame of stress fed by anxiety and doubt.

So to rewind the last of the 2010 Words of Wisdom, let’s read 2nd Chronicles 15:7 – But you (put your name in here), be strong and do not let your hands be weak for your work shall be rewarded. Talk about a splash of perspective that’s like a walk in the rain without a care in the world 🙂

These words of wisdom literally put the brakes on for me and cause me to remember why I’m doing what I’m doing. It’s so not about me, not even from me, but what He desires to do in me and then through me. I’m going to tell on myself right here. So last week, Steve, who is going to be helping me with this workshop in the “Relationships” segment and who is on my co-host on Blog Talk Radio sent me his notes, all 14 pages of them!@$%^* 🙂 Oh, by the way, did I mention he’s a licensed psychologist? Anyway, I spent hours trying to translate these notes – he’s literally a genius, especially when it comes to putting the “frame” together, which is why we make a good team because he builds the frame and I do the coloring in.

Anyway, I kept praying, crying out, whining, in fact, to Daddy, I probably looked like a two-year-old having a tantrum. I just couldn’t figure out a lot of the translation. After walking away, praying some more, taking breaks at His prompting, I received a break-through, a very small one, but it helped me to see why we’re doing what we do and for whom we’re doing it for. Then the next day, I got a bigger breakthrough and finally, just a couple days ago, I completed the translation. Now it was time to prepare the workbook for the workshop. I have to admit, this is going to be some good stuff at this workshop 🙂

In the meantime, there are so many other things that need my undivided attention literally; the most important of these is my husband. Sometimes, when I begin to focus on all that needs to be done versus why I’m doing what I’m doing and with whom I am doing it, I really do start to get those heart palpitations and breathing becomes a bit difficult. I just want to run and hide, take my computer with me and write endlessly and anonymously! I can only imagine what my husband must see when he sees me like this. No wonder it hurts him to see me so busy. 🙁

Reading this verse at this time is no accident for either of us. It’s His reminder to me  and to you to look to Him for our strength for whatever task we are trying to accomplish, big or small. I know that if I continue to even try to do it in my own strength, I will fall flat on my rear. It is because I am looking to Him daily that I am strengthened and want to work with Him to do kingdom work.

I am also struggling with having to promote myself and/or the newly-published book. The truth of it is, I wish there was a way of just promoting the book without me, so because I am still learning, I’m a bit weary. One thing’s for sure, I believe in the writings that make up the cups of encouragement in this book for I know they were/are Holy Spirit inspired, and my reward is around the corner when you get to read them.

In His Strength, and His Hands of Love,

Evinda

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